cry!

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
'cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?
'cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

TRY

If i walk, would you run?
If i stop, would you come?
If i say you're the one, would you believe me?
If i ask you to stay, would you show me the way?
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me.
The world is catching up to you
While you're running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe i'm not ready

But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If i sing you a song, would you sing along?
Or wait till i'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If i give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful.
Am i catching up to you?
While your running away to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe i'm not ready

for the first time in few months or years that i've been single n so freaking lonely, i never felt like this before, this is such a freaking feeling. i hate to be jealous just by watching people look into each other eyes.. i hate it, hate it so much, because it never ever cross my mind to have this kind of feeling, all this while i was just fake everything, the whole jealous thing, never been so serious about it but know everything turn out differently!! please lah get rid of this feeling, im just fine with the single thing and i think im use to be lonely!!

to do list!!

this is the things that i really want to do now:

1. see a shooting star

2. play in the rain and dance through it

3. go for a bike ride

4. make cookies (raya!!)

5. take a long cold bath

6. hear a joke and laughing the whole night

7. get a haircut

8. have a dance party, sleepover party

9. read a book- a really good book

10. fall in love with someone who will do the same to me!!

i believe that there is nothing that we can't really do, so do what you want to do and make your dreams come true because there is no one can stop you accept you, yourself!! take control of yourself and don't let others knock you down.