rabiatul rosli

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

what is wrong with me?

lately I don't know what is wrong with me,
dah 2 hari angin 1 badan, buat semua bende pn tak kene,
asyik rasa macam nk marah n nangis je.
started to hate myself n blaming everything.
maybe sebab da lama tak balik rumah kot,
maybe sebab homesick. or maybe jugak PMS.

but then hari ni bertambah2 angin n bertambah bengang bila dpt tahu carry marks,
benci gila kot, one whole class tak pernah diajar format essay,
what do you expect when the whole class answered the midterm?
of course la we all akan buat macam org bodoh kan,
and result nya pn of course la bodoh.

the whole class don't deserved this OK!
we all deserve better and we all know that we can do better if we get the right format,
now who to blame?
is it our fault?
no I don't think so, and I guess the whole class have to agree with me.

OK fine this is only part of the problem that really piss me off,
another thing is this one girl that really make me want to cekik2 her and maki2 her.
what does she mean by " you can take him if you want too, I don't want him"
or in bahasa melayu "kau layan la dia aku tak nak"
bullshit man! the way she talk to me itr seems like I'm so fcukin desperate.
halo I'm not OK, besides I don't really like that guy, please la.
by saying this to me, does it make her feel that she is hotter n better that me?
I guess it does, that why la kan.
I know la there is so many guys want her but then she dont have la hina me like that.
I am better alone so you don't have to worry la girl, you can take all the attention because
I don't need all that, what I really2 need is the air I breath and the family that can love me.

now lets move on to another thing that really piss me off lately,
all my schoolmates was mengadakan one reunion for our class the 5 budi class,
I already told them that I could not make it because I got stuff to do,
but then they all just proceed with their plan and blaming me (sort off la)
because I was not there with them.
they keep telling me how fun the reunion was and how much did I miss the whole thing. =(
they tag me on the fb, I was so fckin jealous to see their picture, and they also keep saying that
they don't miss me and they don't want to hang out with me after this.
this is not my fault OK!
but then I still hoping that 1 fine day I can still see and hang out with them,
because I was so fcukin miss them, I really miss how they used to bully me before.

apart from all this, I was also lega because I have presented my persuasive speech today.
en.faez says that the gimmick was good it just that I terlalu bergantung on the text and low eye contact. but still lega and I think that this is better than my informative speech.

I'm still hoping that I can bertenang and not marah2 without sebab anymore,
I do also hope that people will think before they speak,
and too my carry marks there is nothing else that I can do right,
just hoping for the best at the final and doa2 byk2 thats all.
really hope that i can get the dekan for this sem. =)

Monday, March 29, 2010


i still remember when my friend told me that its about time for me to find someone who can take care of me who can love me and comfort me......
and i still remember what i told her, i said that i dont need anyone i can take care of myself and i have my family who loves me and comfort me......
but now i realise that i need to consider what i told her before and i think that it is about time for me to rethink the whole thing back....
i think that now is the time for to set up a new mind set before it is too late....

Friday, March 26, 2010

Oh, it is love
From the first time I set my eyes upon yours
Thinking oh, is it love?

It's been hardly a moment
And you are already missed
There is still a bit of your skin
That I've yet to have kissed
Oh say please do not go
But you know,
you know that I must
say I love you so
But you know
you know you can trust
We'll be holding hands once again
All our broken plans I will mend
I will hold you tight so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my hand into yours
Thinking oh is it love?

it's been hardly three days
And I'm longing to feel your embrace.
There are several days
Until I can see your sweet face.
wouldn't you like to be older and married with me
wouldn't it be nice to know right now that we'll be
Someday holding hands in the end
All our broken plans will have been
I will kiss you soft so you know

Your heart may long for love that is more near
So when I'm gone these words will be here
To ease every fear
And dry up every tear
And make it very clear

Thinking oh is it love?

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Someone just tell me
That it’s ok now
What are you worried about

Got my dreams, got my life, got my love
Got my friends got the sunshine above
Why am I making this hard on myself
When there’s so many beautiful reasons I have to be happy

People lie, people hide, people cry, people fight

And they don’t know why
If fear is all that we should fear
Then what are we so afraid of
Cause fear is only in our heads

Someone please say...

Any day ill go bad thinking bad
Everyone is against me and the world wants to fight me
Preparing to battle an enemy unseen
During my stressing I’m blinded to the lesson
That could be a blessing if Id be confessing that the enemy
I’m trying to beatis hiding inside of me

But it’s ok now...what are you worrying about...